I was on the Tufts/SMFA shuttle

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we were approaching that track and field stadium by Alewife Brook

I think my knee was still broken

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And I felt that emptiness that I haven’t been able to qualify

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That time I tried to draw it

to locate it

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Mouth slightly open

letting in some

but not much

oxygen

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which always leads to confusion/forgetting 

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of what led me to this point in the first place

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It’s familiar but not typically noticed

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What I sought after

I couldn’t find it on that bus ride but

I still have that page

 

though I can’t find it right now

 

And many other blank templates 

Because I’ve tried many other times before 

To locate that feeling of loss 

before it swallows me into that Place 

wherever it is

 

 

 

 

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